A Year later

I had somehow convinced myself that today wouldn't be hard, it would just be any other day.  Kelly and I had shared in conversation a couple nights ago how I felt rather unemotional about the one year mark of Caryn's passing.  I asked how is one year any different than one day, one week, or one month?  This morning I went for a run with Brody and it finally hit me...You see I miss my sister more than any words can describe, she was so many things to me, a  best friend, a one time roommate, someone I could pick on, she was in all aspects my little sister. 

So as we fast forward a year later from what sometimes still feels like a dream I often find myself in a whirlwind of emotions.  But what I find that comforts me that most is that I feel like she is still with me, she is with all of us.  She may not answer the questions I ask but she reminds me through memories and her smile that we will never forget.  And I am convinced that she is the wind that pushes against my back on a hard run, she is the rainbow that we sometimes see, and that she will always be the first ray of sunshine that peaks over the Bay each morning.

I love you Caryn.